I’m Carmen Sakurai… previously, Carmen Maranon… originally, Carmen Sakurai. It’s a long, sad, never ending story…. lalalala…

this is my personal blog. the opinions expressed here represent my own and no one else’s. of course, my thoughts and opinions change from time to time because i have an open mind, so whatever i say at the moment is simply a “snapshot” of my thoughts at that given time. which means my views expressed outside that particular moment may change… or not. some look at it as adult add, but it’s really a healthy thing as far as i’m concerned, so please get a hold of yourself before jumping on my face screaming, “inconsistency!!” when you’re reading what i choose to share from my thoughts.

Hmmmm… so, exactly what’s safe to reveal about myself here?

I am… Filipina/Japanese. Mommy to the most adorable little boy in the universe. Wannabe psychologist. Neurotic. Sensitive to a fault. Perfectionist. Student of life. Foodie. hopeless romantic. Curious about the dark side. Searching. Always helplessly in love with something or someone. Passionate about all I choose to do. Perpetually conflicted… and… a Drama Queen.

I’m deathly shy and take absolutely everything that’s directed at me very personally. It takes every ounce of courage I have, just to be in the presence of others… and believe me, what you say to me can make or break my day. It’s pathetic, but, such is my life.

Because I’m a work-at-home-mom, instead of working a 9-5 j.o.b., I have the luxury of somehow fitting in 12 hours of building and maintaining my business throughout the day…

95% of my time is allocated to my son… playing outside, putting up tents in the living room, battling transformers, legos & bionicles, reading, doing homework, restaurant & movie nites, gozilla marathons, etc. I do *not* reschedule with my baby, unless I’m deathly ill.

Then… I try to invest 2.5% in earning another degree that I may find interesting and the remaining 2.5% to volunteering with anything Joshua-related. I’m the PTA President and have been actively volunteering at J’s school from day uno. I teach religious education once a week, and help out as a “team/den mom” for any and all extracurricular activity my son is involved in. Oh, and I’m now my son’s piano teacher!

And let’s add homeschooling to that list, shall we? I am now my academically gifted 5th grade child’s teacher… and I love it. And I love that HE loves it!! (No, I am definitely *not* smarter than this 5th grader…)

That makes 100% of my time. Herein lies the challenges of squeezing in my business responsibilities so my son and I have plenty of food on the table.

Leaving me no time for… “grown-up activities” at this point (see paragraph above)… but, believe me, my lack of free time works out better for me and the rest of the world.

Anyway… ever since I was forced into the role of single-mom back in october ’06, I’ve found myself becoming addicted to a medley of delightful things… food, purses, clothes, food, chocolate, self-help books, bubble tea, chocolate, hair products, food, shoes, sushi, makeup, restaurants, downloading music, mark sanchez, writing, food, perfume, food, movies, chocolate,clubs, food, and… office supplies (^-^)*

Which was really weird because I’m usually fond of… not much. Maybe this is my way of keeping myself amused while avoiding having to face my screwed up reality… and it’s come to a point where when I find something I really like…

I become Addicted. Absolutely Obsessed.

And I ain’t too proud to admit I’ve got an unhealthy obsession with food… as well as an addiction to sexy vampires, shoe porn, yummy quarterbacks, Tiffany Silver, and… reading.

Anyway, I guess that’s pretty much it… nice to meet you!